Charalie-

I don't really know what to say. I mean, I didn't talk to you much since Matt and I moved away, but really, how did it get to that point? What were your last thoughts? I mean, I talked to you just a couple weeks ago, about the baby and jobs and how it sucks working all the time. There were no signs, I mean, you told me you didn't know if you wanted all the responsibility, but I don't know I don't think that's what drove you to all this. Really, why didn't you just call one of us. There are so many people asking that, "man, why didn't he just call me?"
What you did is something that I contemplated at so many points in my life, and just watching everyone in your life after the fact, I could never do it. I mean, I understand to a point. I thought about it so much, I always just thought people would understand, but now I realize, no one understands. It's just strange, there was no indication that anything was even wrong.
I'm not mad. I just wish that there would have been something I could have done. I really do regret losing contact with you, after everything. But it was so weird. I say that now, but I know the people closest to you and you didn't talk to them, why would you have talked to me?
I'll always remember the fun times, skateboarding, old school video games, awkward hanging out times, late night ramblings to each other, you and Andy making out with me in the middle, going to shows/playing shows- you were always supportive of me no matter how much I sucked :), double dates, watching you and Sarah play video games. Truthfully, out of all Matt's friends, I liked you best!

I don't know what else to say. Sometimes I wish I believed in heaven so I could think that you were up there. But to me it's more feasible that you've just been reborn as some other soul that's going to rock the planet on guitar, hopefully this time when you're reborn you'll live somewhere cooler than Burlington.
Love you forever dude
-Natlie