Insomnia's making a comeback; commitment

So the insomnia has made it's grand comeback. This is two nights in a row. Don't really like going to work all sleepy but I'll make do.

So the other day I was making a left turn, before I had actually started the left turn and while I could still stop I saw a car coming at me, but I slammed on the gas and went anyways. After that I spent the next few moments wondering why the hell I turned in front of a speeding car? The more I thought about it, the more I realized how, in my younger years, I was extremely hesitant and unsure of every action. So I thought about the things that changed between that time and making the left turn. And I think I figured it out. Skateboarding.

I skateboarded for about five years. At first I was extremely timid and unsure of any trick I tried. I had what was called a "pussy foot" meaning that I would do the motions for a trick but wouldn't land them, one of my feet was always off the board. So over and over my little brother told me I had to commit. Eventually I did commit, well, to everything but kickflips. Later in life I took up mountain biking and had to adopt the same attitude. If you're going to do something, don't do it half way. You have to put yourself out there, give it a real effort, and don't turn back. As I learned, especially with mountain biking, you can hurt yourself a lot worse if you chicken out half way through.

Taking up these sports really changed my perspective on life. No matter what I do, no matter how stupid it is, I now commit 100%. It transfers to everything, work, love, family, recreation, and apparently, driving. Sometimes it's not the smartest way to live, but really, it works for me. Now if I want to say something, I stand up and commit 100%.