Charalie-

I don't really know what to say. I mean, I didn't talk to you much since Matt and I moved away, but really, how did it get to that point? What were your last thoughts? I mean, I talked to you just a couple weeks ago, about the baby and jobs and how it sucks working all the time. There were no signs, I mean, you told me you didn't know if you wanted all the responsibility, but I don't know I don't think that's what drove you to all this. Really, why didn't you just call one of us. There are so many people asking that, "man, why didn't he just call me?"
What you did is something that I contemplated at so many points in my life, and just watching everyone in your life after the fact, I could never do it. I mean, I understand to a point. I thought about it so much, I always just thought people would understand, but now I realize, no one understands. It's just strange, there was no indication that anything was even wrong.
I'm not mad. I just wish that there would have been something I could have done. I really do regret losing contact with you, after everything. But it was so weird. I say that now, but I know the people closest to you and you didn't talk to them, why would you have talked to me?
I'll always remember the fun times, skateboarding, old school video games, awkward hanging out times, late night ramblings to each other, you and Andy making out with me in the middle, going to shows/playing shows- you were always supportive of me no matter how much I sucked :), double dates, watching you and Sarah play video games. Truthfully, out of all Matt's friends, I liked you best!

I don't know what else to say. Sometimes I wish I believed in heaven so I could think that you were up there. But to me it's more feasible that you've just been reborn as some other soul that's going to rock the planet on guitar, hopefully this time when you're reborn you'll live somewhere cooler than Burlington.
Love you forever dude
-Natlie

Things that piss me off.

So usually, if you've read any other posts, you know my blogs are usually pretty happy, just me rambling about things that I love. Well today, I'm tired of it. I'm going to talk about things that I don't like, in list form.

1. Coralville. I live in Iowa City, I work in Coralville, most of the major shopping in the area is in Coralville. I really really don't like Coralville. I'm not sure why, it's just not very welcoming. There seems to be a lot of crime, I work in a pretty crummy area and so maybe that skews my perception. There's always road construction, or a sheet of ice, or both on the main road through it. I hate the mall and despise going there but I do anyways for Target, Old Navy, and Maurices. Seriously, the mall is probably the worst part of it. It's really long, there aren't many good stores, Iowans in the area flock to it because it's the biggest shopping area for quite a few miles, and there are always lines in every store but Lane Bryant.

2. Dodge/Chrysler I think they suck. That's about it

3. Windows Vista. I think this is the only OS I have ever used where 2 gigs of ram isn't enough. I'm not sure why this got released at all. Maybe because they poured money into it and didn't predict all the backlash against it. I've used Windows for my computing for most of my life and Vista made me switch to Linux (which I probably would have done anyways because it RULES) I actually think I may just take it off my computer completely because it's a waste of a huge amount of space. The more I use Linux the more I hate Vista and refuse to use it.

4. Knee problems. I used to run 5 miles most days, then I developed arthritis and now I can't run more than two without pain. I just want a new goddamn knee.

5. Sitting all day at work. I can feel myself getting fatter.

6. Waking up to go to work by 9 AM. Since I was on a 10-6:30 schedule for so long I have a really hard time waking up before 9. You would think that hour wouldn't make much of a difference, but it makes a HUGE difference, trust me.

7. Republicans. I don't really need to explain that

8. Automated voice systems that can't understand anything I'm saying. Pizza hut used to have the absolute worst. I wanted to punch the phone everytime I called. Fuck that.

9. Being hungry after I've already brushed my teeth. It's like, man, do I eat again and rebrush these things or do I not eat and go hungry. What a decision. (I only include this as it is my predicament now)

10. Money. I never have enough.

I think I'll quit because 10 is a good number that doesn't piss me off.